BUT, I feel like, at least for myself, I get SO caught up in my appearance to others. If I don't have the security of being the christian girl everyone expects me to be, then my self esteem drops to zero. There is a certain safety in being something that people make you. In the stereotype that I am put into/put myself into, I don't like to make mistakes. I mean, who does? But, doing things "incorrectly" is one of my worst fears at times. To put it all together, if I am not going full out for the Lord, what is the point? Sometimes that may mean waking up in the morning and going to school, but if I am relying on Jesus and waking up and goin to school for him, then awesome! [PART THREE]