HE IS HERE

goodness gracious. i know i have not written on here in ages. my life has been filled to the brim with EVERYTHING. good, bad, sad, happy, etc. i have thought about everything. i have doubted things i never though i would. i have even questioned God and His mercy. i have wondered and wondered. i know it's normal, i just have never experienced the darkness extreme doubt. i KNOW for a fact that satan thinks he can tear me down, and has been trying, and won't stop. in the name of Christ the Son Of God Our Father i speak against that. i might as well make it official over my blog that satan has no power against me because if God is for us, then who can ever stop us?
anyways, tonight i experienced worship and everything i needed. close family friends gave me words that i have no doubt were from God. You know that silence that we as Christians experience in certain seasons? the kind where we just feel like He's not there. Well i've been there for a good chunk of time. But getting words from God is like a cool sip of water after being in a dry desert for a long long time.
there has been a lot to soak in for me tonight, all wonderful things, so i'm not quite ready to go into detail, i don't know if a blog is the place for that, but what i must say, if nothing else i wrote got into your head, hear this:
God is here. He's real. He is carrying us all. He is our Father. Sometimes i think we as Christians forget that our God is for us, and He is right here with us. He cares enough to give us spiritual gifts and talents and friends and family and sunshine and trees and smiles and flowers and a cool breeze when we are feeling too hot. More than anything else, he cares enough that He gave His Son, His perfect, wonderful, beautiful, everything-in-one Son, to us. to US. us little stupid humans who are so full of ourselves and what we want and think we need that we can't seem to get passed it. God is FOR us. He is for us little tiny humans, in everything we are NOT, he sees us worthy of being saved by a perfect spotless lamb. He IS love. he doesn't just love, or know love, He IS love. We did not define love, we simply get to watch it unfold in front of us as God paints us a picture of what it really is.


PLEASE watch this video of Francis Chan, it really answered a lot of my questions:
click here